I never realized just how true this is! ♥
Larger Plates
My friend said to me, in the sarcastic yet genuine tone that only a friend of 30 years could- “So, you have just a tiny bit of room left on your plate, why don’t you just pile that other issue on there and worry about that too?” Hmm. I do that? Oooohh who am I kidding! Oh God! She is right!! Hmm. Now what? Clear off some of the stuff on the plate? Naahh, go to larger plates! 🙂 Ugh. This is an issue I must address before I seriously end up in the mental ward of the nearest facility.
My Mom was only two years older than I am, when we had her involuntarily committed and FINALLY diagnosed with, and treated for Schizophrenia. It was a terrible, yet wonderful time, as she was finally my Mom again. Once on her meds, she could carry on conversations with me, yes there were some occasional voices, and behavior that was worrisome, but mostly, my Mom, a wonderful woman was back! Now of course, that did not take the memories of that other woman, that evil, abusive woman away from the spot in my brain where they were encrusted. It just made me forget about it, or so I had decided to let myself believe.
Sitting in the corner of the sofa, reading glasses on, baggy sweats (the ones you wear when you feel depressed and withdrawn), wrapped in the warmth of my Mom’s sweater (again too big), it hit me, very hard, that I indeed was my Mom. This was how she dressed, this was how she acted, THIS was how she felt. Was it before she lost her mind, or after? Did I want to know the answer to the question? Why was I asking it anyway? Good grief, did I not have enough on my plate right now? Apparently, I did.
Leaving You With – “Mental illness is the only disease that can make you deny its own existence. Certainly the idea that the brain can deny its own illness is a frightening thought.” – Unknown ♥
Reach Out!
Happy Mothers’ Day – My Rather Unsettling Realization
Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you, yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts.
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that
His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer’s hand be for gladness;
For even as he loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable.
On Children – from “The Prophet” by Kahlil Gibran
Connection With My Son
Leaving You With — Love Them No Matter What♥
Friends
Problems. We all have them. I get swept away with the notion that everyone is my friend. I know that everyone is not my friend, but because I want to be everyone’s friend, I think they are mine. Nope. Natta. Not, No way. No how. Not true. Not happening….And, I always find this out the hard way. Klunk. Bang, splat, right on the head! Ugh! I confide in these people. I invest in these people. I care about these people. I care what they think of me. Umm, what did I just say????? I don’t want to care what ANYONE thinks of me!! Butttt, I said I care what they think of me?? These people who are not EVEN my friends? Just people on life’s path who have been blessed enough to have me in their lives; who I wanted to keep in mine. Problems, we all have them. This is one of mine.
Leaving You With – Friendship is a Blessing! ♥
Friends
My Strength
How lucky I am to have you for my strength! If I had to just depend on me, I am afraid to admit where I would be. Scared, fearful, unsure and lost. How lucky I am to have you! Thank you Jesus, thank you.
Leaving You With – I Am Grateful For You! ♥
Thank You Jesus
Destiny’s Decisions
When you know it is the best thing you can do for you, and you know that it will not be easy, and you know that there are 5 million people in your life who will tell you that you are making the wrong decision, you just know.
You know when life says to you move on, I will be there for you. Hang onto me, do the best you can and rest assured in the belief that it will be good enough! You just know.
When you know because you are prone to visceral responses, you just know. You know what you need to do, what is right for you (whether or not temporary insanity has crept in) you know you have to step out in faith. And, you just know.
Leaving You With – Giving Up Is Not Even An Option! ♥
Stop Worrying
A Gentle Reminder ♥
I am a piece of fine China, do not think that you can treat me like a paper plate.
Leaving You With – Be gentle with yourself ♥
Thank You!
Thank you to all of you who have taken any time at all to read my posts. Whether just on the reader, or in the entire content. You are all awesome and I am so grateful for all of you! The likes, comments, and followers are such a wonderful part of the sharing on this blog, it brings me joy. Peace and happiness to you all!
Trying So Hard To Enjoy My Journey
I have been hiding. I am still hiding. I don’t want to know what it is I already know. I am a personal person. I like my “peeps.” If you are in my life, you are special to me. (Whether or not I am special to you??) (That just seems wrong ok – moving on) I am a personal person. I am personal with those I care about, those I love, and those that I work with. Ahhaa! Those that I work with. This is what I have been hiding from. Ugh! While being ever so grateful to have gotten back to work, I am in a not so, if ever, personal environment. No. I am hiding again. My truth be told, it can be emotionally abusive. Yuck! It drains me of my life source right down to my roots. There I said it. But I am still hiding. There is so much more. Decisions, decisions – I wear (what is left of myself at the end of the day) out by thinking and worrying about them! They say that before a change that is good for you, in your life’s path is coming, you feel the most uncomfortable, that is how you know it is coming. Blahh! Blaahh! Blaahh! I want to feel better, so change me alreadyyy! Ugh! Feeling scared. Do not like feeling scared!!
Screaming the message
Leaving you with – Sometimes the person you are screaming the message at, is not the one who needs to listen. It is you. ♥♥
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